Journal: As you walk away, you know you can run, run back to my arms.

Dear Journal

I overslept again today. I had tried downloading the movie Prometheus but my iTunes messed it up. I had to download it again.

When I got up I started writing. I did a first draft of the companion story. I don’t know why I am calling it that, but for the moment it seems to fit. The story started coming along nicely.

I texted the ‘Ex’ again. I had to ask one final time if there was any hope for us. I shouldn’t be surprised by it but I got a resounding no. I even asked again if we could have a sit down but he wouldn’t hear of it.

For dinner tonight I made butter chicken. I browned the chicken in soy sauce and to thicken the sauce I added some cheese. It turned out quite nicely. We had vegies and wedges. A typical family dinner for us.

‘He’ and I discussed tomorrow’s plans. He has an appointment at the doctors and I have to do the final shopping for ‘It’s’ birthday.

‘Ex’ got back to me later this evening. The talk there was longer. In a way it was good. I will never get closure from him. I will never have an understanding. But that was the closest I will ever come to having. The truth is, it didn’t do anything but destroy the last remains of my heart. It made the decision clear.

I don’t have to worry anymore.

Still, for now I have my writing. Hopefully I can maintain on that. For the moment it’s the reason I can get up and try.

At least one more day, I have in this Kingdom. One day. Please dear god, give me strength.