Journal: Why do you not talk?

Dear Journal

Today was another boring day. I just found it so hard to get going. I ended up playing nothing but ‘Small Street’ all day. I finally got in touch with ‘Ex’. It all went badly of corse. He’s still shutting me out.

He’s upset because of how I believe he cheated on me. I know it wasn’t a physical thing. I know ‘He’ says he didn’t cheat on my physically. But it was the emotional change I was talking about.  When they grew close I felt like I was being treated differently. Maybe it was all in my head but at no point did ‘He’ do anything to convince me otherwise. In fact it felt like it only got worse.

I don’t deny I did wrong. I did plenty wrong. But I just don’t understand why he changed, and no matter how I ask ‘He’ wont talk to me. ‘He’ keeps shutting me out. It’s the same thing ‘He’ was doing before and the same thing ‘He’ is doing now.

I need to either know why those two being friends changed him, and/or I need him to stop acting this way so we can move on

I have decided to make another change. I am going to get a new job. I am going to do up my CV and find a new job.

Don’t get me wrong, the job I have is a great job. It offers amazing hours and brilliant pay. I can honestly not think of any fault to it. But after 6 years working in an industry that I don’t wish to make mine. I am a writer. I want to work in a book store or library. Hell even a stationary shop would be great. But I want to work with book or publishers or something like that.

Anyway, the new version of Greys is finally down. I am going to watch it and then go to bed.

So goodnight for now, I will sleep then be off to work in this Kingdom tomorrow.